I get this annoying feeling every once in a while where I crave being in a relationship. I watch a dumb indie romance movie on Netflix and suddenly I'm like... "damn where my boyfriend at?". And I've been wondering, is that something that stops happening after a while (someone please tell me it does)? Sometimes I'll see a couple leaning on top of each other on the L train, kissing incessantly, and I scream internally because I wonder how those two weird ass people (lol) found each other and I'm still alone! Other times I look around at all my friends with their significant others and wonder why my future boo didn't get the memo. I feel like when I start to get upset about these things that it makes no sense, because I'm young and still have plenty of time to find someone. But the actuality is even though the future will be great, it doesn't stop me from being bummed right now.
I'm trying to work on confidence and self love more, because I think before I get into a relationship with anyone I want to work on myself first. It's not that I mope around all sad and shit 24/7 either just so you know!! But I think a lot of people including me have some days where we just don't feel our best.
I also found out that when you're single, guys are a D-I-S-T-R-A-C-T-I-O-N. All they do is talk nonsense to you, make you interested in them, and then hate that you're interested in them. Like men... I'm sorry but y'all have work to do. I NEED TO GRADUATE AND PAY OFF THAT TUITION. And unless a guy is going to help me get my diploma and give me a check for a million dollars (call me), there's nothing to talk about.
All jokes aside though, I'm hopeful I'll find a cool dude, but in the meantime I'm just going to focus on me and let it happen naturally in time because,
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